This morning I crawled out of bed and headed downstairs for my morning glass of water. I put on my running clothes and sat on the couch. I didn't want to go. After playing on the computer for a bit I decided this was the day to push myself... Because I didn't want to. My body needs to learn that this "not wanting to" crap is not going to work this time... So...
I ran 4 miles and walked 2.5!!! For a total of 6.5 miles. 10k!!! My body hurt mile 3. I kept going!! By mile 5, I wanted to go home (I passed my house six times!) but I kept going. Mile six was just crazy hard. I thought i might have to just crawl home! I thought a lot about how my body was getting crabby but my mind, heart, and half my soul are stronger and should win.
I also texted my BFF just before I started. I KNEW he would ask me later how it went. I'm bad at lying. And no excuse is a good excuse when it comes to my training. I did it on purpose!
I'm not giving up this time. I'm just not. I want this more than anything I've ever wanted!!!
Next weekend I'll do it again. I'll do better too because I'll have lost even more pounds and won't have girl issues stealing my iron and making me feel heavier than what I really am! The next weekend I have a 5k to do but after that I'm only going to sign up for 10ks. Unless they close the course after a certain time. That still freaks me out!!!
I'm still kinda in shock I even do this. Sooooo not like me to even care... This girl is changing!!!
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