December 2

I've been so busy today. I had an inservice yesterday and it inspired me-- in more ways than one.


The biggest one is that Ive just been going through the motions of working. No amount of jokes and relative child theories will change the fact that I am probably just buying time until I can do something else. But I shouldn't just always go through the motions at work. Somewhere deep in my "cold" heart I do care about my children. I want them to succeed. I want to change the world and I truly believe it starts with small children. So, I took the whole day and made some things for my classroom. A lot of them were ideas I have (and had) about working with challenge kids. In college, I taught a severely dyslexic and diagnosed ADD to sit long enough to read!! It took me the while semester. But every day I was motivated more and more. I used techniques I theorized would work. Some did, some didn't. Now, if I could do this in college when all that was motivating me was... myself... Why can't I do this now with all the challenges I face?


I can. And I will!!!!

Forgive me Blog World...

I haven't posted in a very long time.  I absolutly loved blogging and it brought such a peace about me.  I am not quite sure why I stopped.

The summer drains me.  It is WAY too hot in North Texas to do any sort of training outside.  So, I stopped completely.  My booty and thighs show it!  Funny how running really does tone certain parts of my body.  I've stayed strong on my diet that I have almost just considered it a life style change.  I engage in french fries and chocolate candy bars now and then but I really know and understand my limits.  I've been researching a whole new concept in dieting, errr lifestyle change, that I'd like to implement after Christmas is over.  I can't give up mashed potatoes completely yet!!  But I'm leaning towards it.  More on all that later.

I've started back to running.  My life is so chaotic right now that I only can run on Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays.  It's the way it is.  I hate that, but I just can't change it right now.  Well, unless I wake up at 5:00am.. but come on, that will not happen.  I've been doing some crazy exercise called a BURPEE that the BFF is OBSESSED with.  How on earth the BFF talked me into this is beyond me.  They are INSANE!!  My girly parts HATE me when I do them.  And I haven't really pushed myself to do more than what my mind tells me I can do.  But, I can feel them the next day as I go about my daily business.  My upper body strength is less and less by the millisecond.  I've been researching what to do about all of that.  I think I've come up with a soltion...  More on all of that later.

The biggest thing is I really feel like mentally I need to start blogging again.  I really am in this fitness and lifestyle change on my own.  No one around me, besides said BFF, really supports me.  They all think I'm totally fine the way I am.  I really don't think it's okay to live such a crappy life.  So, I go at it alone the best way I can to fit my needs and the needs of the non supportive people around me.  Long sad sappy girly ridiculous story short, I'm in this for the long haul and I need some sort of mental outlet to get this out...  (the BFF has 10 other hats to wear).

So, look for more blogs starting tomorrow.  I have a bazillion pictures and things to post about.

An almost happy.....  ~Melissa